I made a separate account to post ts so yall better read it all🥀💔💔😭
Also don't judge , Ik I sound like a desperate loser but seriously it was all Outta My control 😭😭 i swear I'm not weird or something irl

Back in 9th grade, there was this girl in my class. but I didn’t have any feelings for her at first. Honestly, she wasn’t even that beautiful initially, and we barely talked. I’m an outgoing guy — loud, talkative, always joking around with everyone, including girls. But she was one of those “attitude” types: rude, blunt, and not afraid to insult anyone. She got annoyed by my outgoingness and started treating me like an enemy, constantly insulting me whenever I talked to her. Eventually, she even asked the teacher to change her seat because my presence irritated her but the more she insulted me, the more I fell for her 💔😭 (yeah, degenerate behavior, I know)

After our seats got changed, I stopped talking to her — obviously, who likes being insulted in front of the whole class? As a guy, I couldn’t even insult her back. But once every week or so, I’d still end up talking to her, even though I knew I’d get roasted. I tried finding ways to talk without annoying her because I just couldn’t resist.

A year passed like this — me trying to get her attention and her treating me like trash — until I finally realized I needed self-respect. I stopped talking to her completely, Another year passed, and I still had a huge crush on her but never talked to her. She wasn’t that beautiful at first, but somehow she kept getting more and more beautiful over time, and I couldn’t stop watching her from a distance. I knew she was a red flag and not someone I’d ever actually want to date, but I just couldn’t help liking her. It wasn’t in my control.

In 11th grade, I chose science, and she took commerce, so we ended up in different classes. I started focusing more on studies and stopped going to school regularly. But whenever I did go I still couldn’t get her out of my mind and peek glances at her at the excuse of going to the bathroom . I used to ( and still do ) fantasize about having a girlfriend and romantic moments between us ( top degenerate behaviour ik ) — and she always ends up being the gf in my head. I even tried fantasizing about some other cute girl but she always ended up being that gf no matter what , I just wanted to see her act nicely to me for once

Just like this 2 more years went by I tried avoiding her but always ended up peeking glances at her beautiful self , i graduated school , I thought of telling her on graduation but remembered how I'm ugly ( first time I regretted being ugly ) she how hates me so I didn't.....

Another 2 year passed I'm in 2nd year of college and I have mostly got her outta My head but shes still the gf whenever I try to fantasize , I still can't imagine any other girl in my romantic fantasies

Sad ending💔🥀 ( Ts real as **** and not a joke 😭 , Ik it's unrealistically corny but ts legit asf )